Trainer Tips

     JD will still not take formula; I wouldn't either.  He is drinking vanilla rice milk and loving it.  I don't feel like a terrible mother as much anymore.  I've been justifying the milk supply stoppage with he is getting too attached--nursing is for comfort, not food--and it slightly mollified my conscience.  Not completely, though.  The real reason I stopped is because I wasn't loosing weight and I couldn't satiate my ravenous hunger.  Now that I am no longer the milk woman I have lost two pounds in three days and I have cut my calories to a healthy weight loss number.  The constant feeling of starvation is gone.  I feel so good that the guilt is on a back burner instead of erupting out of my eyes as tears.
     I go around chanting a little sing-song mantra because I am so happy at my progress:
               I've lost two pounds, two pounds, two pounds
               I've lost two pounds, two pounds
               I've lost two pounds, two pounds, two pounds
               I've lost two pounds, two pounds
     No I am not a poet, but I'll sing it for you next time I see you.  It is really easy to learn.  Maybe you can sing it with me and we can add a dance.  That will help the number increase more rapidly.  I hope the song will eventually be 65 instead of two.  But two pounds in three days is an excellent start.  It is Biggest Looser quality.

     My trainer says I can only weigh myself in her presence so that my weight loss or gain is not the motivating factor.  Half a pound here or there is not as motivating as three or four.  She is right.  Stepping on the scale only once a week at most is going to be really hard because I feel so good about my progress and I want to see that success as it happens.  Oh well, if I have the will power to eat frozen peas instead of ice cream then I can stay away from the scale, too.
     Another tip from Nikki the trainer is that the slower you go when lifting the better.  Complete control on the way up and on the way down is better than using your momentum for more weight and more reps.  You want to start feeling it the last couple of reps on the first set, the middle on your second, and the whole time on your third.  If that is not the case then you need to adjust the weight accordingly.  She is great and her advice is really helping.
     I also gave blood yesterday and my body is hurting even more because of it.  I need to go do my weight training circuit again today and I am dreading it because I can barely move.  Hence, the song in my head.  I am so hoping it helps.  Wish me luck.

     P.S.  I went and it was hard, but not as hard as last time.  I am so proud of myself.