As good as I felt last week, it just wasn't long enough. I am very aware of how I am feeling because it is the opposite of what I felt just recently. Usually the word depressed is just a word that means you feel down, but I know understand that it means more than that. It means pushed down. There is an outside force pressing on me and today I was strong enough to get out of bed and help my children get ready for school before it was too late. That may not be true tomorrow. I feel like I have sinned, like the spirit has left, but I can't think of what I have done. I have been really good lately and my spirituality has increased. I am glad most of you do not have to deal with this personally and that you can choose how to behave and feel like you have the spirit with you all the time.
I am going to the doctor soon to see if there is some other medication that will help more than the one I have. That is a scary thought because of the side effects and it takes weeks to see if it works and then the process starts again if it doesn't work. Pray for luck.
I hope you find something that works for you.
ReplyDeleteI watched a documentary called Food Matters (Netflix instant) and one part talked of the success of treating depression with Niacin. Really interesting.