Waking Up In A Fog

  In a previous post I mentioned a dear friend of mine is moving to Highland.  I am still very upset, even more so now.  We had a going away party for her yesterday morning and I forgot to go.  I woke up fuzzy in the brain and just sort of went through the motions of the day:  Getting kids ready for school, laundry, baby duties, Sweet Boy duties.  I was confused about everything I did and was wishing for something else to do than change diapers.  I really needed adult interaction to help shake the fog.  It was not until 10:58 a.m. that I remembered the important thing I had to do.  I rushed to get ready and walked there, since my car is still in the shop.  I arrived just as she needed to leave.  It was the one thing that would have helped me the most and I blew it.  Yes, this party was about her, not me, so it was OK that I wasn't there.  Still, I am sure it hurt her feelings a little.  I apologize to her, formally and publicly; I also apologize to anyone else that has been an unwitting victim of my issues.    
  This sweet friend bore her testimony in RS and had the five of us all crying, faces dripping.  She has been such an inspiration to us all and we will miss her terribly.  I was even reminded to go to the party after the meeting.  I had been planning to go for two weeks.  What is wrong with me?!!
  I really hate this part of myself.  My actions and intentions do not match up and it really interferes with the kind of person I know I can be.  Anybody else a self-saboteur?  Is this normal or is it a part of my illness?  I understand a lot of people shoot themselves in the foot for other reasons than mental defect, so do I have both or is one a result of the other?  If anybody figures this out, let me know.

 I stole this image from her blog.  Without permission.  Please don't sue me.

  This sweet friend is a photographer and she would probably love some free advertising, so I will plug her shamelessly right now.  I have never seen such beautiful and fun portrait work.  Every session is better than the last.  She is always working to improve herself and her work.  If you need a family picture, school portrait, engagement/wedding photos--anything, she does it all.  You can contact her at studionoelle.com.